Wanna be a Rock Star!

5th week in scs or rather ncs now.. hmm gotten used to the office hours and the job scope that i am assigned to.. have been thinking seriously about my future that what i wanna work again.. i felt so lost.. IT, i have no interest at all.. business management, i dont like to be confined in office and do paper work stuff after my experience in ncs.. now left with NIE.. As for teaching, i dont have any experience in teaching yet.. Coz so far haven found a job that involves me to teach.. But as for my playful character i prefer a job which is full of entertainment that i can play but at the same time, i can enjoy my work too.. Have been thinking quite a few of them.. like cruise director - one who plans activities for the passenger to onboard and get fun with them, tour executive - manage a tour group and go round the world as well as get crazy together with the tour mates under my charge, singer - gets to sing as well as at the same time play games with the audience.. So far this are the 3 jobs that i had think so far that fufil my playful character requirement.. haiz.. I seriously felt that i am wasting my youth away without any goals in life.. This kind of feeling really makes me feel miserable at times.. Imagine everyday u are forcing yourself to go to work and u dont really like the job that you are in but u still have to do it.. I seriously dont know the reason why we need to work now.. Is so fucking miserable working.. For the sake of money? To kill time? To keep yourself occupied? For the sake of survival in this money minded world? If god can granted me a wish, it would be to dote myself more and feel happy in whatever i do.. Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz..