Wanna be a Rock Star!

Wake up kinda early today for church! Have been kinda good boy these few months after since ipp starts. Think getting used to this sleeping habit already. Now i cant sleep beyond 1.30am like last time i used to do. 3am or 4am then i can get into sleep. Haha i think it is a good start to prepare me for ns next time or even my 2nd sem study sem started. Was discussing holidays trip with my father just now. Said something that really touched my heart and also at the same time feel really sad too. He told me that this fri wanna take leave as to go natas fair to book either korea or japan trip with me as sat it was expected to have alot of ppl going and it will be very crowded and hard for us to book anything there. He was thinking to take either a half day leave or full day as he had to attend a sales meeting. LOLs. But he feel like taking a full day leave as it has been a long time since he haven taken any leave and he has like 28 days of casual leave unclear! not including medical leave in yet! whahahha.. And just out of my fast mouth i told him: " Aiya can u be more hardworking anot. Just take 1/2 leave will do la.. then after work can drive me home too!(if he take full day leave he will take train and bus to expo coz he lazy to drive) " Then he answer me: "ok lor" but i can see from his expression that he really wan to take a full day rest at home. LOLs for my own benefits i actually said that! really feel that i am kinda bad son. LOLs. hahaa. And he have always wanting to go holidays with whole family too but i will always say that i wanna go cruise with frens or have other things with frens and rejected his offered. And all the excuses flashes back in my mind that makes me feel kinda uneasy in my heart at that moment. And looking back at the years he didnt take any leave and went working despite he is sick, i really feel pain for him at that moment too. Was thinking everything i wanted and even how expensive it is if i asked for it he will nv fails to get me the things that i wanted for me. He also told me that he cant celebrate with me my birthday with me on monday as he has to fly off to malaysia and thailand for biz trip! He nv fails to celebrate my birthday with me and i dont even know when my parents bdae was sometimes and will forget too! ARGH i think i really need to do something about it to strengten myself with my family in terms of bonding already! Later gonna go ttsh to visit my grandfather. Shall end off here..